Anger
I am feeling so bad inside today…A frend just tryin to help me tonite but somehow I felt so hurted - again n again I am crushed…… like weeds bein stepped over many many timess, but I know I ll grow again…
What really hurts me is the fact that someone imaginary worlds seems to include me for being so obsessed, while my pure intention is to give sth out from my heart wif no intention of gettin sth in return. I used to expect sth in return but I got over that stage…Somehow, the whole drama return againnn…. I feel like to shout, yelled n swear…. but all i can do now is just smile in front of my comp, how this feelings are all just feelins, nuffin significant as it changes like weathers according to situation, time and conditions +)
Everything comes to pass, nothing comes to stay.-Matthew Flickstein, "Journey To The Center"
I learn about that long time ago +) let it all be, take woteva comes and enjoy the present… no matte how others is puttin u down, leavin u on a difficult situation or makiin it hard for u to breath, I will stand up n walk wif smiles on my face n be the loudest person to laugh….
If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you’ll never enjoy the sunshine.Morris West
A frend has misunderstand me, again n again, I have become a burden…Well wot i can say is, get over it, deal wif it, n if u think i am such a disturbance then piss off….
I have my own things to deal wif n if my pure intention has been misunderstand then bugger off… I dont need you, dont need those bloody stupid bloodsucker, who shorten my life each day… if u think it is best to stay away then tat wud be my good kamma, cos someone like u neva deserve a bit of my heart anywayy….
Id betta make use of that pure love to myself n the world I created..my creation wud b filled with laughter, sunshines, and music …. wif u, my world filled wif confusion, tears n pain…. it still wonders me why still i choose that dark path, but hey Im only human, my curiousity makes me do things unimaginable, tastin every bitter fruits there is, only to realize that sweet fruits is wot I already hav within….
I create my own sorrow so that I can realize n be content with what i got now…
Unimaginable how it hurts when someone you really care, let you go n sent you straight into the realm of darkness evrysingle time… well I guess that kind of person really not worth carin at all, not even worth mentioning, just like a piece of dirty cloth useless to clean anything.
Whatever Kamma that person creates from woteva intention at heart, then that is what will you received back in return.
This anger has now faded away… But one thing I need to mention is that I will as always be Me… I do whatever I like, but one thing you can be sure of, I don’t despise you but I do look down at you … Even if you talk to me, I will still talk back n laugh as I always would be, but my heart will looked down at you like a piece of dirty cloth useless from the starts.
today blog is a bit harsh but i hav to say it, i hav to let it out…..
anyway gnite
